Since last September I have started
this blog a dozen times. There was always a reason not to finish it.
Since January it has involved family. My Mom had blockage in her
arteries, a bad valve, and “A” fib with her heart as well as
COPD. After one false start, on February9th she went for
surgery at Lankenau Hospital to correct her heart conditions. The
surgery seemed to be just a bump in the road by the next day but she
regressed. She spent the next 6-1/2 weeks struggling against her
heart and it seemed at times against the care providers who were
trying to make her better.
At this point she suddenly became
animated and eager to progress to the next level. We were elated and
ready when she was moved to a Heart rehab facility. She struggled,
fought against, and grudgingly complied with the regimen she was
given for four weeks. Then she got Pneumonia. It was devastating to
Her heart was fixed, although
she was still weak, but her lungs weren't. She asked for Hospice on
May 13th, was moved there on the 18th, and
passed at 10:10PM on the 19th.
My mom wanted to go into
hospice on the 16th, but I asked her to wait, it was my
birthday. I was 60 on May 16th............60. How many
people get to be wished Happy Birthday by their Moms when they turn
60? I wouldn't let her wish it on the 15th, I came back on
the 16th so she could do it then.
Most of my friends are younger
than me, and both their parents are gone. I still have my Dad. As
much as I might feel grief, he lost a partner of 65years. I hope our
family can help to fill that void.
Which gets me to this
point..... I'm Flyfisher51 and I went fishing today. I caught a 12”
Rainbow Trout. It only cost me two flies to snags and branches, but
it was worth it. This late in the season in S.E.PA, this is a haul.
The daily temps had dropped enough that the water was 64 degrees and
very optimized for Trout fishing. This was the first time this year
that I had a day that I could spend in that Dream State I call Fly
Fishing (It is actually A.D.D. and I am most at home when I don't
fight it). I have spent many days tying flies and anticipating this
day but none really being there. I took pictures of the stream, the
fish, and the Winery where I fished. I went up to the
winery(Manatawny) after I was done and bought a bottle of
Shirah(2008) and Concord Grape Wine. I took pictures and wished my
camera was more sophisticated so I could zoom in on the Catbirds that
were all over the stream.
I came home, sat on the deck, and watched the birds,
squirrels, and chipmunks cavort where I feed them. I planted flowers
in the side Garden last week, Dianthus mostly, so that next year I'll
have less to do. I planted my tomatoes two weeks ago in containers. I
planted two Better Bush and two Patio. I put the two Rosemary from
last year (I lost both creeping Rosemary this winter), as well as the
Spicy and Italian Oregano, and Nancy s' Dill in the side Garden. I
also put an heirloom tomato of hers there as well as potting an
eggplant. I put another Rosemary in a pot where it is joined by a
Sage plant. I planted last years Thyme, and this years Basil and
Oregano in the old Spice Garden.
We saw our first Hummer a week before Easter. Recently we
have been getting a bunch of girl birds hitting the feeder. All our
other birds are feeding as usual. We have a Chipmunk who has taken up
residence by our front walk and a field (?) mouse who has built a
home in the Yucca next to the deck.(His days may be numbered because
of the reputation for moving inside during inclement weather.) (You
can only be cute for so long.)
Before coming up to write this I sat on the bench, within
my hop trellis, pondering finally finishing this blog. The Trellis is
already inundated with Cascade and Northern Brewer bines and the
bench is no longer a seat, it is part of the Hops plants. I drank a
few beers and I watched the birds flutter in and out of the feeder
area. Mostly I was impressed by the Catbirds, who went about their
business in my back yard without paying any attention to my problems,
intent only on surviving and living for today.
Jun 4, 2011 | 10:18 PM PST
So sorry that your mother had such a lengthy illness. Thankful you were around to support her and she was able to see her sweet son turn 60! Also thankful you have your fly fishing & gardening to help you during this time of grief. Take care & enjoy your special time with your dad.... Happy belated birthday !!! God Bless you ~Andrea
Jun 21, 2011 | 6:05 AM PST
Sorry about your Mom, I know how you feel I have lost both parents...some days its harder than others. Will say a prayer for you and your Dad. It will get easier in time. Hang in there and spend as much time as you can with your Dad, he needs you now. Blessings...reba