claycitycoon's Blog

Today as I was planting my garden, I got about half of it done then decided to finish the rest tomorrow.  But as I was covering the seeds over with dirt-a thought occured to me...I have all kinds of expectations for this garden, I'm hoping to dry out my peppers and herbs and create my own spice blends, for example. The same thing occured when my second son Kylar was concieved.

My wife and I had only known each other about four months when she got pregnant, we both had and still have a million hopes for him and his little sister. All we can do is love them, do the best we can by them and that's it. I can't chose his future or pick a career for him.

See, my oldest son, Sean lives with his mother about an hour away. I see him as much as the law allows- every other weekend. Sometimes it feels more like Sean comes to visit and he's seeing an uncle or something- not his dad. He knows I love him, and he likes his siblings and all, according to his teacher, he's constantly talking about the things we do together...But he has this whole life with his mom I know nothing about. The point is, With Kylar and Kylie it's like I get a new chance at being an influential dad...I still have a million hopes and dreams for all my kids, this gardening thing may help me grow as person too. Thanks for listening to my ramblings. Jas.