cant yall just give me one day ta clear mah head??
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Posted: Jul/04/2008 7:10 PM PST
well alots been gooin on with me lately most of which i wont mention but the sum of it is somethin happened im still finding it funnt when i chjoose to now because i pulled all sorts of crap i NEED to clear my head an pretty much delete the crap from it but i wanna do it alone or with 1 specific person around (who happens to be in ohio right now and who i may not see till AFTER i get back from branson too long as it is till that person gets back) so anywho ive been able ta clear my head some but like i said id rather be alone (harley is ok with me i really trust him) and well my mom an uncle are gooin out ta the camper an the capitol --state-- tomorra they WANT (feels like are forcing me more like) me ta go too but im thinkin itd be a great chance fer me ta do what i need ta so yea theyre sayin they might go to the rennanasce fair thing too which i wanna go to well i KNOW if i dont go they will to #@!$ me off if i do they likely wont go so yea im at a loss fer how ta get some time ta really think seeing as i cant just stay here an do all i need i can do some but id MUCH rather be outside dooin my thinkin oh ANOTHER thing yall are likely ta see some noticable change in me fairly soon definately ill be in a better mood once i get ta really talk to the friend |
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Posted: Jul/04/2008 7:32 PM PST
That's cool. I hope things work out well for you, but if a rod gets thrown in the wheels look around to see if you can turn it into something else productive instead of stressing. One of my boys and his girlfriend asked us to go to the Medieval Faire this year. That's where his dad and I had our first public reunion date when we got back together and he got involved in a comedy skit with a rouge called Tuberculo. Future hubby's only line was as a Frenchman "I have to go, oui, oui." And he had poor Tuberculo stopped midsentence and stammering a few times and got accused of trying to steal his show. It was funny! Anywho, get your head straightened out or whatever else is bugging you and come back with garden tools a-blazin'! Best of luck! |
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Posted: Jul/04/2008 7:56 PM PST
oh i dont plan on leaving here i can get a good bulk sorted on my own but some i WILL need the outher person around for the rest as it relates to them --im pretty shure my friends wont initally believe me when i explain that its the presoniality i created to help me survive middkle school that ive been leaning on lately --gave her toughness an outher things i fely i needed then still had my mind an was close enough unless you really knew me you would hardly think it wasnt me but there are some things nomatter how people react they should NEVER be suppressed that there is TRUE weakness yea tough little biyu is really a weakling hard ta imaging the outher personiality i think she is also how i dont get embarassed or offended nice USELESS things lol |
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Posted: Jul/04/2008 8:56 PM PST
We all wear different hats at different times for different reasons. I worked with a woman for years before she realized I had such a crazy sense of humor. I don't know how she ever missed that. You might check out the Johari window structure. It's kind of refreshing to know that even if you think you need to tell people certain things you don't always have to. I don't know if that pertains to your situation, but it's still good for self evaluation. |
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Posted: Jul/04/2008 10:01 PM PST
You may take one day to clear your head.  
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Posted: Jul/05/2008 4:21 AM PST
Quote: Originally posted by poeticpeony We all wear different hats at different times for different reasons. I worked with a woman for years before she realized I had such a crazy sense of humor. I don't know how she ever missed that. You might check out the Johari window structure. It's kind of refreshing to know that even if you think you need to tell people certain things you don't always have to. I don't know if that pertains to your situation, but it's still good for self evaluation. oh fun well definately strange is lately i havent felt like eating oh say ANYTHING ive even told my mom after it became seriously annoying but with how ive been eating i think she thinks im over it fer shure (started bout last november an i cant really relate anything to it eighter) even tho just afew days ago i couldnt finish my number 8 from wendys with the ice free rootbeer (chicken nugets) so yea i havent tolf my uncle an ive had ta force myself ta eat around him too like last night 2 brats beer boiled then out to the grill corn beer boiled patatoes inspired by rachel ray ramen slaw an beans well i had 1 bite of the corn ok but im NOT big on corn everything else was good so yea an really if that window philosipy is bascally step back see things as you are and around you i think i can kinda do that allready it definately helps with beeing honest with my friends i think that is in part due to the outher personiality i created but im not entirely shure as i could see some things before hopefully by the time this is over ill be back to me an marie will just be a name an set of info i use online ta stay safe (ivde been wanting to change my name to marie zymbotica the only heratage i know is my mothers side scottish sweedish norweigen an german so yea kinda strange huh? in the proscess shes learned ta react ta my name too tho i think after awhile ears are trained to perk at hearing they name they reconise as there own) ill shut feelin literally like crap think it relates ta lastnights food |
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Posted: Jul/05/2008 4:28 AM PST
Quote: Originally posted by txrose You may take one day to clear your head. lol there if i need a break from here ill take it oh speakin im due in branson soon and october fer the k-9s in vegas (speakin another thing i need ta ask that friend if i can talk my mom into it do they wanna come with us it WILL be the first time im dragging a friend with on any vacation were both 19 tho well will be by then oh AND i had origonally wanted ta use the 4th dolphon trainer ticket on that person but never said it to my mom then ended up getting mad at them fer somethin stupid so yea if i can +1 to the trip i think i wanna be a wing person just take pics of the friend having fun maby see if i can join in with the part where they pull a dolphin up an you sit next to it--not to mention i have a hard time gettin in an out of the pools at the mirage) yea it was fun an i NEED to talk to the friend edit oh the room were staying in is HUGE for 2 people too 3 itd likely be great (nyny weve stayed there before luxor is ok sized fer 2 people little big but NOT like nyny) |
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Posted: Jul/05/2008 12:36 PM PST
edit/update thing well i think itill take the week till the friend returns from vacation atleast seeing as i get NO say in what i do anymore--i wantyed to stay at my moms house so i could work in my garden if i feel like it which WILL be really likely (im usted ta using music ta drown out my emotions there were acouple times i think one i was cryin fer get why another i was REALLY mad anywho i felt like itd never end so i put my cds on cranked sang along an yea drowned out emotions) well my uncle decides "no you stay with the pup or you go with us" id rather willingly be dooing something so yea it might be awhile lol hopefully i can atleast stay sane while were in branson |
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Posted: Jul/21/2008 10:14 AM PST
an "update" if you will ive changed some lol i know it outhers know it ive some more crap ta sort thru im my head but i think its done enough ill remain sane if you wanna know what i mean "changed" metagifted.org indigo an crystals i was an indigo now im becoming a crystal (yea im into metaphysics too lol sence like 12-13) |
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Posted: Jul/23/2008 6:15 PM PST
Whaaat? |
