I think I have found my answers. They were right in front of me the whole time. I am there alone. That says alot. Is that really the answer? Or is that only what I see? Or what I want my answer to be? Am I dwelling into looking for the answer? I need to move on and not dwell on things. I need to get over hurdles in my path. The more I dwell the more things from the past come up. I should be writing them down. Some one said there is a light at the end of the tunnel. LOL This sure is a long tunnel, its rough and rocky too.
Then you hear things aren't always what they seem. Meaning, grass isn't greener on the other side? I will testify to that. I know the grass isn't greener. But I think I can make it. If not, then I will have to find a resource that can help me make it. Another job, energy assistance, or my parents. I will have to take the bull by the horns and get it done. Step up to the plate. Do what I have to do.
As for my gardens they will flourish. I have faith in that. I have kept them as simple as possible. Weeding is the whole thing. If I can get them mulched, weeds won't grow. I have alot of mulch (from tree trimming) so I am mostly set. Won't cost me more than my time.
Its a very dreary misty day. But I am trying to look at things positively. Now if my hair will just co-operate. (-:
Sep 19, 2009 | 8:34 PM PST
Hi all. I have not been on here in a while. Way to many things have been happening in my life. I have to prune bushes this weekend and pull out everything i feel needs to be discarded. I am all alone now. Making due with what i have. The decisions I have made have been good and bad in others eyes. I have put all my problems in Gods hands and still don't see very many things answered Maybe they aren't going to be the out come I want. But I know I can't stay on the same path. I almost left here and took Nothing. But I want my home and so now hubby is not here. I can only pray God answers my prayers. So I can move on. Tomorrow seems like an it will never come. I had a small surgery thing this morning. All went well I think. If I could only make my life as simple. I am debating on a weekend trip in a few weeks. NJ shore or the mountains of NY. Haven't decided. Mountains maybe the one. I love the fall best. And fall leaves were in my dreams the other night. So it may be the mountains for me. I'll keep you posted.