It's kind of weird, I didn't notice that I was not on GG for a long time. Well I'm back, and everything is wonderful.
My plants are growing fine. There is however something that went terribly wrong with my peat pots. It looks as if someone knocked them down and attemted to put them back in the tray. Oh well, that's okay. I hope they still grow.
Oh God, I have the SAT tomorrow, and I just took some practice question, and I had no idea what was going on, and it was horrible, and everything is tumultuous, and all was bad, and God in Heaven, I am going to do horribly at it.
This is bad, very bad.
On another note, my seedlings are being well taken care of.
Now, I know that I am fairy new to the gardening scene, but I have learned a lot already from this site. You guys are really informative. I have a question, what is an heirloom seed, and an antique seed? What is the difference between them, and regular seeds?
Today was a good day, I went grocery shopping and stuff. I did notice more seedlings, I am getting very excited!!! I never thought that anything that I planted would grow, I guess I only had to be patient.
I decided to start learning the Japanese language again, at one time the only thing that I wanted was Japanese fluency, times have changed, and I want so much more.
No sprouts today. I wonder...are they ever going to sprout at all? I don't have that much confidence in myself as a gardener. I thought I saw some sprouts in the peat pots today, but it turned out to be a tiny piece of a leaf from a nearby try. I was disappointed to say the least. I'll keep you guys posted on that. I promise.
I feel that I've had some sort of rebirth today. I feel like I want to be a young beautiful girl, not a worried, tired, stressed-out, bore.
I wonder why life looks better, when you look at someone else's. I often catch myself seeing girls and saying, "Why can't I be like them?" With their make-up, mini skirts, hi-heels, pink purses, and cell phone charms. I sometimes feel like going out, and getting that, but then I am not sure if that's what I want. I guess if I'm not sure if I want it, then I really don't want it. I'm sure that I want to garden though. I want my plants to grow, and I want them to be beautiful, and if they have feelings which I believe they do, I want them to feel happy all the time.
It's time for me to go get what I want out of life.
Today is a much better day than yesterday. I kept to myself, went out to my garden, watered it, watered the thirsty little babies in the peat pots. Plants can be good friends too. I have so much homework to do for homebound. It's quite upsetting, but I'm upset at myself because I let it pile up on me. I should have done it when I first got it, now I'm under stress. I started a new diet today, the Richard Simmon's deal-a-meal diet, I hope it works for me. I am going to work a lot harder on this weightloss thing. I am also going to go walking, for an hour. I have a playlist on my iPod that is exactly an hour long. That should help me out a little.
I noticed something, plants make me happy because they really can't disappoint me, not even when they don't grow.
Today (or should I say yesterday as it is 12:49 a.m. here), my once best friend asked me to go to our local mall with her. As I have not been in school because I have some mental illnesses, I haven't seen her in a long time. Well, I didn't enjoy my time with her to say the least. It was very uncomfortable, and strained. I found her to be very boring. Her boyfriend showed up towards the end, and she started talking to him, and I was left standing there saying nothing.
I realized then that the time that we had lost, we can never get back, and the life we had won't be ours again. I guess when the morning comes, I will just have to forget about our life, and tell myself that I feel so much better now that they're gone forever. I hate to remember the good days when I was happier, and around people. Now, my anti-psychotic medicine has increased my appetite, leading to significant weight gain, and I feel so unattractive. I am at home most of the time. I have no friends. I feel so down sometimes. I am glad to say though, that gardening helps, and in this site, I am finding some good friends.
Thank you everyone, especially you Bill, you guys make me feel so much better.
Feb 25, 2008 | 9:10 PM PST
I feel kind of guilty, I didn't get to garden that much today. Well, I don't really know what else there is to do, nothing has sprouted. How do you guys find stuff to do in your gardens everyday?
I recently bought some bonsai seeds. Well, actually, they're actually regular tree seeds that you have to grow under certain conditions so that they will become bonsai trees. I chose the Japanese black pine. I want to grow one for me, and one for my fiance. I want to grow mine in the informal upright style, and my fiance...I bet he wants one of the typical bonsai, that he sees on T.V. and stuff. That is going to be so fun. I know that it takes like 10-20 years for a bonsai tree to become passable.
I also bought some venus fly trap seeds, because my fiance had some when he was a little boy, and now I want to grow some for him. I wonder if they are easy to grow. I am also going to try to grow some Tower of sapphire, it's hardy to zone 9, but I'm in zone 8b, I think that it may grow.
This guy bought me some lilies, he won't leave me alone though. He is persistant on asking me out on dates even though I have told him multiple times that I am engaged. He texts me a lot, and I have no idea what to do about him.
You know what plant I really want?! I believe that this is my favourite plant. I want some pink pampas grass. Gosh, I am longing for some pink pampas. I don't think they sell it at any store here. Maybe at a nursery.
Today, or should I say yesterday, because it is currently 1:30 in the morning, I did some, what I call, extreme gardening. I planted some more carnations in my garden, then planted about 48 peat pots of carnations. I love carnations, they are a very good cut flower. I planted my mom's red Dahlia root, and 5 commander in chief lilies. I also planted her lupine, and morning glory. Then I went to Wal-Mart to get some gardening gloves, because my German Sheppard, Luke, ate my first pair. That's okay though, they weren't expensive. Then, when I came inside, I put my new gloves down, and El Muchachito and Cupcake were already going to start chewing on it. I took it away though.
Nothing has sprouted yet, that's okay though. Maybe sometime soon.
I've been gardening practically all day, from when I woke up, to now, when I hopped into the shower, and straight online. It's awesome. Today I planted more carnations, I'm going to start them in those peat pots, then I planted a rose bush. It's going to be an awesome rose bush. I wish I had a camera so I could show pics.
I guess you could say that today is the first day that I have been outside for more that 3 hours. I've been gardening, and I must say that I am extremely satisfied with myself for having done that. Usually, my depression renders me immobilized, and I am inside in my bed hearing things, and seeing things, but not today!!! I was out in the warm sunshine, with a few bulbs to plant for my mom, and some seeds to plant for her too. Even though it wasn't actually my garden that I was working on, I felt happy. I felt even more happy when I watered my flower garden bed. I'm hoping to get a digital camera sometime soon so I can post pictures of the garden's progress. Nothing has grown yet though. I am not nervous anymore, I realize that if it was meant to grow, it will, and if it doesn't, that's okay too, I'll try again.
Feb 22, 2008 | 8:23 PM PST
I am so excited, today my fiance bought me a book, it's a guide to garden plants. I have been looking through it, and I am surprised at the amount of flowers that I had no idea existed. They are all really beautiful in their own way. My fiance also said that he is going to buy me some pink amaryllis bulbs. I am really excited to add more flowers to my garden. LOL, every morning I go outside to see if anything has grown, and every day I get a little more nervouse, but like some of my friends here said, I should be patient. The good news is that this morning when I woke up, I went to go check out my starfighter lilies, and one of them opened. It amazes me, how they do that.
Feb 21, 2008 | 8:33 PM PST
My Grandpa gave me a hundred dollars because he won five hundred on a Texas Lotto Scrath Off, so I decided to spend 8 dollars on freshly cut flowers. I bought oriental starfighter lilies, and some carnations that look pretty neat. They are orange with bright pink splashes on them. I like carnations, they are sturdy flowers. I hope that I can take care of my flowers for the amount of time that they are supposed to be alive for. I love flowers, and I hope that I can become better with them.